Someone very important to me passed away this morning. Someone I hold dear.. close to my heart. I loved him very much.. My dog.. TeddyBear.
When he came into my life, I actually wanted to give him away. I didn't know why.. but I wanted to keep one of his brothers, not him. But my older brother told me to keep him. And so I did. I didn't regret making that choice. He turned out to be a very handsome dog.. golden brown healthy fur that covered his strong body.. an adorable black nose and the most beautiful doggy eyes.
He was very cheerful and friendly. He liked to spin around in circles when he was in a playful mood. He liked to play tag. He liked to have his back scratched. He liked to be petted.. He liked to run his body along my legs. He liked to eat! He was very fond of chips and cookies. He liked walks! He liked jumping into the car for a ride. He liked sticking his tongue out!
He didn't like cats. He hated cats. He didn't like to take baths. I found it cute that whenever I give him a bath, he'd be trembling.. but once it's over, he'd run around the lawn cheerily, full speed like a little puppy.. and spray water all over. Then he'd look up at me and ask.. "What's next?".
I'm sorry.. At the moment, I'm crying and laughing at the same time. Happy memories keep coming back to me and make me laugh.. but also sad that I won't be able to make such memories with him anymore. He's gone.. He's gone..
He was my best friend. He was one of the few who didn't leave me.. who was always there. Though I know that he cannot understand a thing, he just stood there and listened to me, just looking at me with those big round eyes .. and then I'd feel better. His presence alone made me smile.
It's just heartbreaking that I didn't get the chance to say goodbye.. I didn't get the chance to hold him when he took his last breath I was in my room.. asleep. I regret not getting out of bed when I heard him bark..I do.. in a way.. blame myself for being too sleepy and lazy to check on him. If only I had done that.. I should have..
It's difficult for me.. to be in this room.. in this house.. just knowing that he was once there. But just like Fall, his brother.. who had passed away years ago.. he wouldn't want me to dwell in the past. I have to move on.. And I will. That, I promise to them..
Goodbye, buddy.. I love you. So very much.. And I will never forget..
RIP
TeddyBear Sayomac
December 27, 2004 - November 7, 2012
bye bye teddy bear. i'm sorry for the loss miss leah.
ReplyDeletehe's such a lovely dog indeed.
He was.. He's the bestest best friend I could eve have. Thank you.. He's in doggy heaven now.. And he's watching over me.
DeleteI'm so sorry to hear that Leah. He'll surely get a nice spot in doggy heaven.
ReplyDeleteYeah.. He deserved to get the nicest spot. Thank you, Fang.
DeleteThere is this poem about what happens after a pet dies. You should read it. I think it's called Rainbow Bridge. I read that and I cried heaps. Be strong Leah!
ReplyDeleteYeah? Thank you.. I'll search for and read it. I am strong.. Strong as my dog. Thank you lots.
Deletehmm thats too saddenning
ReplyDeletemy deepest condolences for you lost
may teddybear found peace in heaven
Yeah. He's got a great spot in doggy heaven now. I just.. miss him. But I will be alright. Thanks..
Delete"There are no good-byes for my dog who has died,
ReplyDeleteand we don't now and never did lie to each other."
http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/a-dog-has-died/
Naglumawlumaw man mata ko nang. :( I hope you're ok.
Thanks for that, M. Yeah, I will be okay. :)
DeleteNakakalungkot. hugs* I'm sure masaya na sya sa heaven. Sayang di sya umabot sa b-day nya. RIP TeadyBear
ReplyDeleteYeah. Hindi na sya nakaabot. It's sad.. but then, he's good now. He's watching over me. Thanks, Archie..
DeleteAww I am so sorry, I dread the day when my dogs die coz I know I'll be in a right state too. I hope you feel better and I'm sure the good memories will outlast the sad ones
ReplyDeleteThank you, Hazel. I will always have the happy.. and the not-happy happy memories with me. But it's sad that I won't be able to make new ones with him. But. Teddy would want me to move on. So I am. :)
DeleteHe may be gone.. but he will never be forgotten.
This has moved me so much Leah. It sounds like you and Teddy Bear had a good relationship. I'm so sorry that you lost him Leah and hope that you're okay, I can only imagine the pain that you're in right now, so sorry for your loss.
ReplyDeleteYeah. He was my best friend. He was the most friendly dog and he got along with everybody. He's really a gentle soul. And we have had good times.. and not-so good times.. but still. He was simply great.
DeleteIt was painful.. And I felt guilty. Honestly. I should have gotten out of bed and checked up on him when I heard him bark. He was.. barking so loud.. but I ignored him. He and his brother Pokeybear. I ignored them both..
[sighs] I will be alright. Thank you lots, Matt.
im sorry for ur loss leah, i know how it feels may dog din kasi ako and she is a family too.
ReplyDeleteSalamat.. Ang hirap lang, pero kaya to. Teddy would want me to smile. :)
DeleteAww, Leah. I'm so sorry! :( Hope you're okay. May he go straight to doggy heaven. I love the pictures, it is great that you have so many wonderful memories of him.
ReplyDeleteOh. I've got lots of pictures of him and me.. and of his brothers. But I know I shouldn't share them all. Otherwise, This blog will look like a photo album. Hehe.
DeleteYeah. We did have lots of memories. He's in doggy heaven now and I'm sure he's got a great spot. :)
Thank you, Katt.
He's a beautiful dog Leah, and I am really really sorry for your loss :( I know how much you love your dogs, and how much they mean to you. I imagine you're feeling how I would feel if I lost a cat, and I can't even imagine that.
ReplyDelete*hugs* Stay strong Leah, you aren't to blame, so don't blame yourself.
[hugs right back] Thanks, Mark.. My dogs mean so much to me. Teddy was my companion.. a great dog.. a good friend. It's painful.. but I gotta accept it.
DeleteYeah.. Maybe so. But you know, Mark.. The feeling that.. if only I should have been there, maybe I could've done something.. I'm not sure what I could do. Just something.. I could have had the chance to hug him.. :(
You know.. I carried him out. I hugged him for the last time.. but he was already dead. :( It's heartbreaking.. that the last time I was able to hug TeddyBear.. was when I carried him out of the room and into his resting place.... My heart simply bled.
awwww... so sad.. yaan mo timeyt may kapalit naman siya... antayin mo lang at darating din un.. Cheer Up! ^_^
ReplyDeleteParang ayoko nang magkaroon ng doggy. Ayokong magkaroon ng kapalit.. Hayz..
DeleteAnyways, cheering up. Salamat, Shy. :)
I'm sorry for your loss Ms. Leah. I remember how sad i was when our dog named Tukba died but that was a very long time ago..
ReplyDeleteLosing a pet is heart-breaking. I didn't expect it one bit.. Ang saya-saya pa nya the day before. But I guess.. such is life. Thank you lots, Pearl.
DeleteI'm sorry to hear that, I hope you feel better soon :) x
ReplyDeleteAww.. I'm sorry for your loss Ate. That's just sad. If you don't mind asking, why was he barking? What happened to him? *cyberhugs*
ReplyDeleteLeah *hugs* so sorry to hear about what happened to your dog. He's been a very good to you and your entire family for 8 years, I'm sure he is in Heaven now.
ReplyDeleteCheers!
I'm sorry fro your loss, Leah :/
ReplyDeleteawww...condolence ate leah :(
ReplyDeleteTeddyBear would want u to be strong...I'm sure he's happy in heaven right now :)
*super tight* be strong ate. ayaw ni teddy bear na malungkot ka sa pagkawala nya im sure.
ReplyDeleteGirl nakita ko na din. Kala ko kasi iamsuperleah ang link mo. Anyway. Condolence about your dog. Hiatus ka na after this ah? Pls come back.
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